My new years resolution from last year was met. It was the only one as it will be this year. It was/is to stay alive. So please, no one cause me to stumble or sabotage it. My break was uneventful but unparalleled in relaxation and in selfishness.
I downloaded games and played them for twelve hour streaks and then I would go to sleep for the second night without showering. My brother would return when I woke up in mid-afternoon with my breakfast/lunch. I would sleep when the sun rose. Besides paying the bills for my parents and doing minor errands, the cycle would repeat and the layer of dirt on my skin would relatively rise with the stench I emitted. Those sweet days are over.
School has started. I regret registering for half my classes already. UTD is going through construction; continuing our positive linear relationship of [hate for UTD] vs [time]. Besides blocking all the paths I used to take(increasing my walk time by 10 minutes no matter what), destroying a third of the parking lot I always use (causing it to fill like 30% faster), the strange smell of horse pee from the dirt, and occasional tar, I would say I'm almost okay with it. Except they've been constructing stuff for the past two years.
The only good part is that it forces students to see each other more. Which for me means more hot girls. And dirty smelling guys.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Aider moi?
Before my dad left for Taiwan I could sense his effort to establish a relationship with me that we never had. He would cook and ask that I not clean...wonderful days... One day he was in the car with me, and I was listening to the radio. And he was like George, what are they saying... I was like... uhhh... 我是你有看過的最大的老闆 ?
---
I think I have been missing out on a lot lately, from hiding in my house and my apartment these past few years. The exchange of ideas and thoughts, communication, in my opinion is like the foundation of advancement. Advancing in anything and everything! That was why America used to be ownage. When all the races from around the world came together so much was brought from the other countries. The good, and the bad, creating an explosion of upgrading in every field. Agriculture(King Cotton), technology(Industrial Revolution) and crime(Al Capone, the roaring 20's) were all under this.
You may be thinking, way to lump so many fields from centuries into three categories... But I don't kur!
Ever since instant communication became more widely accessible we have lost a big advantage. All we have is what we used to have. That is why countries like Japan and Israel are wrecking us in quality of life/life expectancy/and technology. We did not use what we had when we were a younger country to our advantage. Their schools are top notch not to say ours are not. But the emphasis on education in our culture is completely different, while their schools are designed to fit their culture/vice versa. But what can you expect from a country whose primary export is entertainment.
The Euro is defecating on the dollar, and only Mexicans will continue to want to move into the US, only because they're too poor to go to Europe. Countries around the world are beginning to prosper as well. Certain cities are popping up that have not been nearly as developed within the past 10 years. Look at Vietnam, China, and Singapore... Soon no one will want to come to America, why move when you can get the same quality of life in your home country..?
Anyways. Communication! In my freshman year, I learned how to kind of cook, do laundry, and work out. Having (mature)roommates helped me learn so much that I miss them. Not only did I make them do everything I didn't want to do, buy a lot of toiletries, they also showed me how they lived. By watching the little things that people do, you can take the good, and add it to your own. (Putting Bread in the Freezer, Peanut Butter + Honey Sandwiches, etc...)
Communicating is also especially important spiritually, I know if I'm not chilling with God, or praying, I am going to miss out on so much. The same with fellowship! Encouragement and encouraging is crucial as well as accountability. I just pray that I can always keep learning and being who he wants.
---
I think I have been missing out on a lot lately, from hiding in my house and my apartment these past few years. The exchange of ideas and thoughts, communication, in my opinion is like the foundation of advancement. Advancing in anything and everything! That was why America used to be ownage. When all the races from around the world came together so much was brought from the other countries. The good, and the bad, creating an explosion of upgrading in every field. Agriculture(King Cotton), technology(Industrial Revolution) and crime(Al Capone, the roaring 20's) were all under this.
You may be thinking, way to lump so many fields from centuries into three categories... But I don't kur!
Ever since instant communication became more widely accessible we have lost a big advantage. All we have is what we used to have. That is why countries like Japan and Israel are wrecking us in quality of life/life expectancy/and technology. We did not use what we had when we were a younger country to our advantage. Their schools are top notch not to say ours are not. But the emphasis on education in our culture is completely different, while their schools are designed to fit their culture/vice versa. But what can you expect from a country whose primary export is entertainment.
The Euro is defecating on the dollar, and only Mexicans will continue to want to move into the US, only because they're too poor to go to Europe. Countries around the world are beginning to prosper as well. Certain cities are popping up that have not been nearly as developed within the past 10 years. Look at Vietnam, China, and Singapore... Soon no one will want to come to America, why move when you can get the same quality of life in your home country..?
Anyways. Communication! In my freshman year, I learned how to kind of cook, do laundry, and work out. Having (mature)roommates helped me learn so much that I miss them. Not only did I make them do everything I didn't want to do, buy a lot of toiletries, they also showed me how they lived. By watching the little things that people do, you can take the good, and add it to your own. (Putting Bread in the Freezer, Peanut Butter + Honey Sandwiches, etc...)
Communicating is also especially important spiritually, I know if I'm not chilling with God, or praying, I am going to miss out on so much. The same with fellowship! Encouragement and encouraging is crucial as well as accountability. I just pray that I can always keep learning and being who he wants.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Commendatori
Recently I began to watch The Sopranos. Why? Because it has won 5/21(nominations) Emmys and a Golden Globe for its 6 seasons and is the most successful Cable Television show, ever. It has been very enthralling and well written. The characters are all believable people that you never want to be, and the only people that you ever feel sorry for are the victims of the main characters. But after 3 seasons I think I'm gonna call it quits; I feel like I'm not learning/getting anything healthy from it, yet have gotten a taste of the effort and art behind it. There's only so many people they can introduce and whack em before it gets old.
To counter-balance the values of loyalty and family in every episode there is in no short supply the amount of breasts and demanding sexual language shown/expressed. The timing of the outbursts are predictable and frequent but the language and actions followed are not. Watching the people's rudeness towards each other brings me sadistic joy.
I don't know why, but I have always felt like a dumbace. It might be because I hung out with constant berating older cousins and classmates that I feel an obligation to have a high spirit of learning. This need to learn has lead me to watch animes, documentaries, and shows which I would know nothing about. IE Go, Boxing, Dolphin Soldiers, Worst Jobs Ever. I find it a waste of time just to watch things now just for entertainment when they're about lame topics or in lame settings. I get that enough watching regular movies! Watch multiple hour long shows of complete made up pulp shi*boop*?, no thanks. When I watch things, I have to walk away with something, knowledge, social commentary, history, random facts, anything!
---
I found this Asian torrent site(requires registration) for Japanese, Korean, Cantonese and Mandarin movies. Despite its low popularity and frequent amount of softcore porn on there; it is very up to date and has the newest movies!
No. I don't download the porn. The only thing worse than Asian porn is Asian porn from Asia.
To counter-balance the values of loyalty and family in every episode there is in no short supply the amount of breasts and demanding sexual language shown/expressed. The timing of the outbursts are predictable and frequent but the language and actions followed are not. Watching the people's rudeness towards each other brings me sadistic joy.
I don't know why, but I have always felt like a dumbace. It might be because I hung out with constant berating older cousins and classmates that I feel an obligation to have a high spirit of learning. This need to learn has lead me to watch animes, documentaries, and shows which I would know nothing about. IE Go, Boxing, Dolphin Soldiers, Worst Jobs Ever. I find it a waste of time just to watch things now just for entertainment when they're about lame topics or in lame settings. I get that enough watching regular movies! Watch multiple hour long shows of complete made up pulp shi*boop*?, no thanks. When I watch things, I have to walk away with something, knowledge, social commentary, history, random facts, anything!
---
I found this Asian torrent site(requires registration) for Japanese, Korean, Cantonese and Mandarin movies. Despite its low popularity and frequent amount of softcore porn on there; it is very up to date and has the newest movies!
No. I don't download the porn. The only thing worse than Asian porn is Asian porn from Asia.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Even Less Fun
Obama won, not surprising at all. I will unfairly assume that it is only because of the nations new profound sense of self righteousness which has only expressed its own insecurity of racial equality. I will also unfairly assume a lot of it is in ignorance.
I feel like one of the few people in the world that could care less that Obama is the first black president of the US. How people hype it up is so irritating when there was already Condoleezza Rice(first woman as national security advisor) and Colin Powell, who was from Harlem. It's like their accomplishments are considered nothing to Obama's. Everyone knew it was going to happen one day. There was a black president in the show, 24, and that was realistic enough for me. The Game said it best when he said " fu*boop* Jesse Jackson cause it ain't about race now.
Now that white people have been de-throned it has made me less happy to see what I hope is not an ignorant mass. The embrace of ring-tone rap, soulja boy garbage, have all been telling me that that is not the case. The Krunk Derrtty South style has gone so awry. They add a a few bells and taps, change the pitch of some of the instrumentals, say someone's name for the hook, and bam, million dollars. The peak of materialism and ignorance is at a new apex, showcased by so many rappers and celebrities.
However after watching the 11th hour I feel a little bit better. Even though I shouldn't. Most of the movie was saying how much we were destroying the planet. It kept reminding me of the science fiction movie, Contact.
The feeling of impending doom is reserved for later generations in my opinion. My children are so boned! The movie showed some new innovations that were more environment friendly and a lot of it was function>fashion stuff. The feeling of efficiency and well thought plans shown made me bust a nut. It was like I was watching Stardust for the first time.
I have been writing a short story for one of my Literature classes, so I have been feeling lyrically drained...thus, lack of posts/quality. ;x
I feel like one of the few people in the world that could care less that Obama is the first black president of the US. How people hype it up is so irritating when there was already Condoleezza Rice(first woman as national security advisor) and Colin Powell, who was from Harlem. It's like their accomplishments are considered nothing to Obama's. Everyone knew it was going to happen one day. There was a black president in the show, 24, and that was realistic enough for me. The Game said it best when he said " fu*boop* Jesse Jackson cause it ain't about race now.
Now that white people have been de-throned it has made me less happy to see what I hope is not an ignorant mass. The embrace of ring-tone rap, soulja boy garbage, have all been telling me that that is not the case. The Krunk Derrtty South style has gone so awry. They add a a few bells and taps, change the pitch of some of the instrumentals, say someone's name for the hook, and bam, million dollars. The peak of materialism and ignorance is at a new apex, showcased by so many rappers and celebrities.
However after watching the 11th hour I feel a little bit better. Even though I shouldn't. Most of the movie was saying how much we were destroying the planet. It kept reminding me of the science fiction movie, Contact.
Panel member: If you were to meet these Vegans, and were permitted only one question to ask of them, what would it be?
Ellie Arroway: Well, I suppose it would be, how did you do it? How did you evolve, how did you survive this technological adolescence without destroying yourself?
The feeling of impending doom is reserved for later generations in my opinion. My children are so boned! The movie showed some new innovations that were more environment friendly and a lot of it was function>fashion stuff. The feeling of efficiency and well thought plans shown made me bust a nut. It was like I was watching Stardust for the first time.
I have been writing a short story for one of my Literature classes, so I have been feeling lyrically drained...thus, lack of posts/quality. ;x
Saturday, October 25, 2008
No Fun
In elementary school, I wished I was white. White girls were hotter (probably since I hardly ever saw any Asians except the late Trini Kwan). There was a white girl named Stephanie that I thought was hot. We were good friends and I would get fresh with her all the time but for some reason I thought since I was Asian, it was like, impossible to git-git-git with her. Like, physically, impossible. It was like they had a square, and I had a sphere. And it didn't fit. We were both geometric shapes, but we could not interact.
There were only about 4 other Asians in my grade and we were discriminated against often. But it all changed in Middle School/Junior High. Mexicans, Blacks and other minorities came on the scene and it was good to have enemies of my enemies. Soon it was white-boy this, white-boy that. Blacks and Whites would fight, then Mexicans on Mexicans, Blacks and Mexicans and it went on. I was a minority and because of that, I was automatically inducted in to the against-white-bois club. No one teased me when I danced or expressively enjoyed rap/hip hop/r&b, because I wasn't white.
While my best friends were all white, it was easy to hold the rest of the race in spite, even though I was in the company of the coolest cats.
Now as I'm in my senior year of college, white privilege is still alive and well, but it's tiring to think about. It's old. It seems like white people are now allowed to enjoy hip hop/rap/r&b without too much whiplash from the African-American sects. The next president is probably Obama, in a few years white people will become the minority, it would seem like the "fight" is over. Except white people will still command most of the wealth of the country. They will be in the tallest buildings with the newest iPods and Nintendo DS's while segwaying somewhere where I hope they will hurt themselves.
It's not fun to discriminate against them anymore. I now enjoy more than ever before the derrtty Southern culture, our hospitality, the crosses on our backs, our cowboy boots, outdoor barbecues and pick up trucks. The racial undertones only adds to the flavor of the South. Maybe I can say all this so proudly because I live in a suburban Dallas... But anyways. The race wars is over, and replaced by class wars. The gap between the richest and poorest grow further even in America. And it only gets worse around the world. Just don't get me started on Yellow Fever.
Racism has always been kind of like the cool thing for me. Of course I don't approve of it and I find it to be one of the most ridiculous institutions, ever. But it interests me to know the history behind the hate. We were all taught to hate something, at sometime(If you're Asian). And I like to know why... Armenian Genocide, Rape of Nanjing, Holocaust, Hutus and Tutsis, Empress Myeongseong's murder/rape, Destruction of Native Americans/Trail of Tears, Hindus in Pakistan, Russians and Germans during WW2, and the list goes on and on.
There were only about 4 other Asians in my grade and we were discriminated against often. But it all changed in Middle School/Junior High. Mexicans, Blacks and other minorities came on the scene and it was good to have enemies of my enemies. Soon it was white-boy this, white-boy that. Blacks and Whites would fight, then Mexicans on Mexicans, Blacks and Mexicans and it went on. I was a minority and because of that, I was automatically inducted in to the against-white-bois club. No one teased me when I danced or expressively enjoyed rap/hip hop/r&b, because I wasn't white.
While my best friends were all white, it was easy to hold the rest of the race in spite, even though I was in the company of the coolest cats.
Now as I'm in my senior year of college, white privilege is still alive and well, but it's tiring to think about. It's old. It seems like white people are now allowed to enjoy hip hop/rap/r&b without too much whiplash from the African-American sects. The next president is probably Obama, in a few years white people will become the minority, it would seem like the "fight" is over. Except white people will still command most of the wealth of the country. They will be in the tallest buildings with the newest iPods and Nintendo DS's while segwaying somewhere where I hope they will hurt themselves.
It's not fun to discriminate against them anymore. I now enjoy more than ever before the derrtty Southern culture, our hospitality, the crosses on our backs, our cowboy boots, outdoor barbecues and pick up trucks. The racial undertones only adds to the flavor of the South. Maybe I can say all this so proudly because I live in a suburban Dallas... But anyways. The race wars is over, and replaced by class wars. The gap between the richest and poorest grow further even in America. And it only gets worse around the world. Just don't get me started on Yellow Fever.
Racism has always been kind of like the cool thing for me. Of course I don't approve of it and I find it to be one of the most ridiculous institutions, ever. But it interests me to know the history behind the hate. We were all taught to hate something, at sometime(If you're Asian). And I like to know why... Armenian Genocide, Rape of Nanjing, Holocaust, Hutus and Tutsis, Empress Myeongseong's murder/rape, Destruction of Native Americans/Trail of Tears, Hindus in Pakistan, Russians and Germans during WW2, and the list goes on and on.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Guilty Pleasure
Lately I have been feeling disappointed. A good friend told me lately, a lot of your posts are pretty debbie-downers. It's true. This year has been unlucky and by crediting it with my misfortunes it only seems to be feeding the opposing abyss, like fire fighters spraying gasoline from their high powered hoses onto a burning house.
Even for simple errands, I think of worst case scenarios and end up having plan B's and C's. And often times have to execute Plan D. To list/rant about them would just be giving them too much credit.
---
It is a guilty pleasure if you will. I wait until all the members of my family leave the house, close the blinds, close the door to my room, take off my shirt, get the material out from a drawer and make sure no one is around before I...read. And then when people come home they bust open the door, I fumble around, throwing the book in my drawer, slamming it, rustling papers frantically, and people become suspicious of other activities.
Even for simple errands, I think of worst case scenarios and end up having plan B's and C's. And often times have to execute Plan D. To list/rant about them would just be giving them too much credit.
---
It is a guilty pleasure if you will. I wait until all the members of my family leave the house, close the blinds, close the door to my room, take off my shirt, get the material out from a drawer and make sure no one is around before I...read. And then when people come home they bust open the door, I fumble around, throwing the book in my drawer, slamming it, rustling papers frantically, and people become suspicious of other activities.
Mother: What...were you uhh...doing?For a class I have been forced to read the Lord of the Rings Trilogy. I have finished the first book by listening to about 1/5th of it on audio books, reading 1/5 of it in chapter summaries and then just straight up reading the rest of the 60% of the book. And it is has been a joy in my life, no joke. I feel so nerdy busting a nut thinking this is like the best book since the Bible and The Little Blue Truck. It has soOo many Biblical themes...
Me: Nothin, you know... just, lookin'...doing homework.
Mother: Why are you...shirtless?
Me: It's hot.
Mother: It's like 70 degrees...
Me: I just took a shower...
Mother: How come your hair is dry?
Me: I didn't wash it today... I wore a shower cap.
Mother: I didn't know you had one, why are you in the same clothes as earli---
Me: You know what, Mom... I got a test tomorrow, I really need to study.
Mother: I see... well there's food in the fridge...
Falling into temptationMy annual limit of reading is about a book per year... And I always catch myself asking people what's a library..? what's a read..? So reading is infrequent for me. When people know you read books, they expect you to know things and have an excellent command of the English language, which I have all failed to live up to, a lot. Stopping people midway into their stories to ask what they are alluding to, what a word means, etc... And the bitter taste of these humility sandwiches are as nasty as black jellybeans, the originals.
Knowing your own weaknesses
Humility
Resisting/fleeing temptation
Using the weak to lead the strong
Sacrifice of yourself for your friends
Doing what you must for the greater good
Unconditional love/loyalty
Redemption
You vs the World
Serving 2 Masters
Twisting what has already been created
Friend: Hey George you want to go eat right now?Socially I am in decline, because I secretively read...all day, all night.
Me: Nah I uhh... I got to uhh... water my lawn
Friend: Oh, what? Didn't you water it a few days ago?
Me: Yeah, it's real thirsty.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Story Dump Trois
Lately things have been pretty busy, and I am a week behind on this...
This is a conversation I had prior to Taiwan, with a friend of mine.
He actually had heart surgery and is fully recovered. God Bless him.
Later I checked to see my grade, and I got an A...not that it transfers into my school, but it is an awesome gesture.
This is a conversation I had prior to Taiwan, with a friend of mine.
Me: LOL
Chad: ?
Me: i never thought that something like this'd happen to me.
Me: okay, so today i was supposed to take my final for my music appreciation class, cause i'm leaving wednesday for taiwan
Me: which is like... 2-3 weeks earlier than everyone else
Me: and i just took my midterm, thursday
Chad: lol
Me: and there's no school on fridays
Me: so i had to learn 16 chapters on my own, so i filled out my study guide, with wikipedia/bs'ing/accumulated power point notes in notepad form...Me: i emailed my answers to her on sunday, so she could check them
Me: she never got back to me, she was expecting it in WebCT
Chad: haha
Me: but i sent it to her real email...so i go in today, we find out why neither of us got our emails, and she checks my answers on the spot
Me: at the end of class
Me: i'm expecting to take my final
Me: she gives a final spiel on what remains of the class
Me: and then is like, what i've seen from your study guide
Me: will count as your final
Me: have a nice trip. i enjoyed having you in my class.
Chad: ...
Chad: I hate you
Chad: I had heart surgery and my teacher's making me take my test
Me: LOL
Chad: you get to go on a fun vacation
He actually had heart surgery and is fully recovered. God Bless him.
Later I checked to see my grade, and I got an A...not that it transfers into my school, but it is an awesome gesture.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)